Pissing and Moaning

damn it. just called the boy to talk about nothing. i'm finishing up things here at work. i voluntarily made myself come here on a weekend and i was looking for a friendly voice.

we were chatting about nothing and then i asked him what he was up to. he's doing a few things tonight and one of them is going by a girl's house for a visit. not just any girl, but the one he went on a date with a long time. the one who told people that she was doing him or the like. i'm not really sure of the details about what connection or lack of there was between them.

i got upset and told him so. we rattled on for a few more moments and were completely unproductive. i got pissed at this point and said "bye" into the phone and hung up. now i'm sitting at work wondering what to do. i hate being mad. i hate that i'm always the one to patch things up. he may have already left for the night and i'm going to stew until i see him again...

i set myself up to feel like crap. or he does. i don't know which but it doesn't matter. point is, i feel like crap right now and i really wish that i didn't.

why don't boys know that they're supposed to call and apologize? even if they don't think that they did anything wrong? just apologize for making us feel bad and leave it at that. christ....