Buyer Beware
i will be sitting in the car with j. do you remember j? well, i have a few minutes so i'm going to fill you in. mind you, it gets a bit like a soap opera.
not so long ago, our friend the boy was an even better example of the commit-o-phobe. he liked to say that we were dating. i guess that my sleeping at his house four/five times a week meant just dating? the titanic was just a tugboat, while we're at it. starbucks is just a local coffee chain. point taken.
during this dating period, i felt quite odd. if we were indeed dating then shouldn't i be dating someone else? i had recently re-met a friend from my hometown. i was interested in him and the boy was just waiting to flake off.
so, after a few warnings [verbal & written] we went on dates. we held hands and kissed. after one long night of drinking i even stayed over. nothing happened, unless you count a back rub - i don't.
now, the boy pulls his head out of his ass long enough to realize that i'm important to him. he sees that while his idea of dating is that i can see other people, he just didn't mean the same person. he thought that i would just date a different person every time... keep my options open.
mister man realizes that he is losing some of my attention due to j and he huffs and puffs. so, i bite my lip and when i return to town from one of my heinous business trips i tell j.
i tell him that i'm back with the boy. that we can't see each other anymore. i lose a friend for the most part. right now i need all the loyal friends that i can get... i really hurt j and i learned that you can warn people but they won't take you seriously.
they will hear you but they will go right ahead and believe what they want. i know that i do. i have been told by the current that this our relationship is supposed to be "fun" and that he's moving to chicago. but since he has been saying he's moving to chicago for the last three years, it's hard to believe.
...and it will be that much more painful when he does go. i will cry and i will say that i didn't know that he would do it. [it will still be a very assinine thing to do because whether he admits to it or not, he's got a serious thing going with me].
so that's my car ride for tonight. sitting in a car with someone who i jilted. haven't seem him since that night and haven't talked to him much either. there'll be updates on this one, i can tell you that.
