Explainin' To Do
last night when the boy and i were getting in to bed i noticed that his duffel was lying open on the floor. with a condom in plain sight.
since i'm on the patch we don't use condoms anymore. it looked highly suspicious that he had one. he had just spent the weekend in his hometown and wouldn't that be a great time to take in a little this or that?
i don't think that he did. it's completely possible that he had the condom in there from when he did need to use them with me. could have been that he took them with on my last trip in miami, thinking that i had forgot the patch.
i talked to him about it and he didn't get defensive. he wasn't sure what it was from and not making up a story is surely better.
i am just having trouble deciding about this. my women's intuition says that i shouldn't be with someone that i automatically assume is cheating. then my logic jumps in and says 'you assume everyone is cheating, you dolt.'
to be honest, i have no gut instinct. i've been hanging out with the guys for a bit. when you do that you try really hard not to react to much so that you can fit in. but i'm wondering if i'm worrying about overreacting when i should be worried about a two-timer.
i don't think that i should worry about this. i'm not. i just like making long diary entries about this kind of stuff. keeps me real.
